The other night I was watching American Idol and as it was coming to an end there was a commercial coming up and Ryan Secreast said that they were saving this last heart felt story for the end. Knowing me, I thought that it was the same typical big time network a marketing. So i was like ok you just said that two commercial breaks ago about the scary looking white guy who wants to be a thug, being drug out by the cops. So I waited to watch this big burley country boy come in and tell his story. Which went about like this: I was young, dumb, and felt invincible! So all in likely I assumed he did something really dumb!! Sounds like me in my youth and in my college days. Yes he did something dumb like robbing a bank with a b.b gun. He went to jail at 15 for four years. WOW!!!
As I listened to him talk, all he wanted to do was have redemption so that his family would look at him in a better light than what he thought they were percieving him as now. At the end of the show you can tell that his family loved him no matter what he did. But he went into the audition room and stood there and sang. When i say he sang, he sang just a few bars, but it was genuine and pure. He sang 'Trouble" by Ray LaMontagne, which at the time immediatley took me back to a conversion three years ago I had with my BFF JILL! No in all seriousness, it was a conversation with my childhood friend who told me to check out this guy named Ray LaMontagne. He said I know your peresonality and your openess for music and he thought that i would like him since I am a huge Dave Matthews and David Gray fan. (As well as Lil Wayne & Young Jezzy) I was blown away by his performance and how it almost me made me choke up. Not becasue I am a wus, but because I love music and great music when it sung from the heart. The guy made it to hollywood round which will mark a new chapter in his life. His persuite of a music career and staying on his path towards redemption.
That song sparked a notion in my mind along with a burning question in my conscience leaving me to ponder what are really doing here? Before you go off on the deep tangent or give me a new philosophical theory to ponder on , this is a really legitimate question in the wake of the state in which the country Haiti is in or the direction America is going with its political soap opera. No I ask myself what am I really doing with my time and money here on earth to better it for the next generation. All I could come up with was absolutely nothing. This is sad to read coming from someone who is very compassionate about people and wanting to see everyone do good for themselves. Don't get me wrong now I do my part and help those that need help, but I feel that each and everyone of us can do a little more. For the New Year, I told myself that I wasn't going to be the old me of the past and try to be a better me for the future and how have I faired so far? Well lets say that there is progress...
Rome wasn't built in a day and neither will my progress reach its pinnacle overnight, but I know that what I hadn't been doing in the past won't be going on anymore. My journey for progress isn't for an award or recognition or even a pat on the back, but for betterment of the society in a whole. I know what its like to be on both ends of the poverty spectrum and both ends has it s ups and downs. Just know that most people only know the wrong end of it....
excuse my typos but i hate homerow!!!
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